Ambition

So I was wondering this morning what creates ambition. Some days I feel like I can take on the world and I am so focused on my goal that nothing will stop me. Then other days I want to go back to eating what I want and sleep in and miss the gym. I don't know why my mind changes back and forth like that.

I know I want to look better and feel healthier but sometimes laziness seems like a better option. I know logically it isn't! I have done well with my workouts but food, oh food seems to control me and gets in the way of my goals. How stupid that is! I guess it is an addiction like any other. I have to work my way back to eating completely clean.

Before I was diagnosed with cancer, I was eating clean and working out and living the BFL way. I was healthy and yet I still got cancer and was the sickest of my life. Why? I wonder if that is my mental block. I know I was doing all I should have been doing and I still faced death. I know that exercise and eating right are still the correct choice. I just have to CHOOSE what will ultimately make me happy. Being healthy and fit will make me happier than that cookie.