Thanksgiving

I'm still up a pound from last Thursday's Thanksgiving meal (157.4). Dang those rolls and pie! I didn't even take measurements this last week because I know it won't show anything good.

I need to get below 155. I haven't been that weight in 7 years! Dang babies and chemo.

Feeling better!

I am so glad I am back on track today after 3 days of eating everything in sight and not working out. I did get up at 6am like I said I would and did a LBWO and added 30 mins of cardio (not so intense but at least something!). I also have ate well all day. I feel so much better!

Christmastime is so peaceful to me. We put up our tree today and all our holiday decorations. My husband built a fire and I lit a spice candle. It smells and feels so warm and wonderful tonight. I love my little (not so little) family. I am one lucky lady.

Thanksgiving did a doozy!

Today is Saturday and I haven't worked out since Wednesday and my eating pretty much bit the big one since then too.

Tomorrow the alarm is being set to 6am so I have no excuses during the day to miss my first workout of the week. I will not miss a workout this week and I will be eating clean all week as well. No mess ups.

I won't weigh myself until Monday morning and I am scared to see what the scale says. I hope I don't want to jump off a cliff! Just kidding, I won't.

Ambition

So I was wondering this morning what creates ambition. Some days I feel like I can take on the world and I am so focused on my goal that nothing will stop me. Then other days I want to go back to eating what I want and sleep in and miss the gym. I don't know why my mind changes back and forth like that.

I know I want to look better and feel healthier but sometimes laziness seems like a better option. I know logically it isn't! I have done well with my workouts but food, oh food seems to control me and gets in the way of my goals. How stupid that is! I guess it is an addiction like any other. I have to work my way back to eating completely clean.

Before I was diagnosed with cancer, I was eating clean and working out and living the BFL way. I was healthy and yet I still got cancer and was the sickest of my life. Why? I wonder if that is my mental block. I know I was doing all I should have been doing and I still faced death. I know that exercise and eating right are still the correct choice. I just have to CHOOSE what will ultimately make me happy. Being healthy and fit will make me happier than that cookie.

Week 5.....

The first photo of each shot were of Oct. 17th and second of each shot were of Nov. 20th. You can't see a huge difference but there is a little. I have been working VERY hard in the gym and yet there is little noticable change with the photos. I need to tighten up on eating clean.

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Oct. 17th 2010 Nov. 20th, 2010
Height: 5'4" Height: 5’4”
Pant Size: 12-14 Pant Size: 11/12
Weight: 162.8 Weight: 156.8
Aprox Body Fat: 36.55% (online calculator) Aprox Body Fat: 33.28%
BMI: 27.8 (overweight) BMI: 26.8 (overweight)
Bust: 37 ½ Bust: 37
Waist: 33 1/2 Waist: 31
Hips: 40 1/2 Hips: 40 1/8
Arm: 12 Arm: 12
U Thigh: 24 3/4 U Thigh: 24
Mid Thigh: 20 10/16 Mid Thigh: 19 1/2
Calve: 16 ¼ Calve: 15 ½

Weight loss to date: 6 lbs
Inches loss to date: 8.6 inches

I noticed this morning....

I don't have AS MANY dimples in my bum.

Just Saying.

Feeling good again!

I have eaten clean since Sunday and feel really great again. Good UBWO on Sunday, fabulous run yesterday and my legs were burning this morning doing LBWO.

I feel lighter than last week so that is a good sign. I've been peeing a ton too so the water must be flushing out some of that junk I ate. I will take photos on Saturday to see if I can see a difference. I can definately feel a difference in my midsection and front quads.

Don't want to post this, but:

Here are my stats for last week:

Nov. 5th.......................Nov. 13th

Weight: 156.8.............158.8

Bust: 37..................... Bust: 37

Waist: 31 1/2............. Waist: 31

Hips: 40 1/4................ Hips: 40 1/4

Upper Arm: 11 14/16... Upper Arm: 11 14/16

Upper Thigh: 24........... Upper Thigh: 24

Lower Thigh: 18.......... Lower Thigh: 17 3/4

Calve: 15 1/2.............. Calve: 15 1/2

Yep, sucky. I am back on track today. Did UBWO this morning and have eaten clean all day. I plan to lose at least the 2 lbs I put on this week and finish the week feeling terrific.

I'm not quitting.

My eating.....

well, bites the big one. I pretty much have crashed on eating clean this week and thank goodness the week is coming to an end. Tomorrow is my free day and I have had a week of free days.

For some reason in my mind when I have messed up for more than a day I have messed up for the week. I have got to change that mindset. Sunday starts week 5 and I am going to write out my meal plan for the week tomorrow and do my grocery shopping so there is no guesswork.

I will weigh/measure and take my 4 week photos tomorrow. Not looking forward to it but I am on this journey and will complete this challenge.

I can see a difference

This morning while looking at my thighs when I was doing my leg extensions I could see a noticable difference in their size. It was really encouraging! I can tell that my midsection is decreasing as well.

My 13 year old was giving me a hug (GULP..doesn't happen often) yesterday and she said "Mom, you have lost A LOT of weight". That is a huge compliment from her. It makes me excited!

I almost don't want to weigh or measure myself on the morning of my free day in case the pounds or inches don't show decreases because I can FEEL me getting healthier and leaner. I will though..I am addicted and need to see progress. Either way, I'm not backing down and will continue on this journey.

Stress Eating

So I know that I eat because of my emotions. It is clear. I have been going through some painful realities and sadness the last couple of days and I tend to want to pull the covers over my head and lay in bed. Unfortunately or fortunately depending on how you look at it, 5 children make that impossible.

So I turn to food. I had a piece of pizza and a cup of ice cream last night. I got up at 5 am and went to the gym this morning and did my cardio. I might have hit an 8 but my body would not respond to running faster. There is definately something about part of your brain that will allow you override your limits. Today it didn't happen.

Today I have had cereal, protein shake, water, coke, 1/4 grilled cheese sandwich, carrots, cauliflower, peppermint soft candies, fritos. I have put all these things in my mouth and am aware of it sabbotaging my eating plan but somehow it doesn't seem important today because of my stress.

I am back on the plan as of this second. Not tomorrow..now.

Week 3 Measurements...one day early

Week 3 Stats:

Last Week:....... This week:

Weight: 158.4....... Weight: 156.8
Bust: 37....... Bust: 37
Waist: 32....... Waist: 31 1/2
Hips: 40 1/4....... Hips: 40 1/4
Upper Arm: 11 14/16....... Upper Arm: 11 14/16
Upper Thigh: 24....... Upper Thigh: 24
Lower Thigh: 19....... Lower Thigh: 18
Calve: 15 1/2....... Calve: 15 1/2

Lost 1.6 lbs from last week and 2 1/2 inches overall. I am happy to see some results but a little discouraged on not quite 2 lbs and no loss in the hips again. I really do feel better and I thought I would have lost more in the hips/stomach area because they look a little smaller to me. Measuring myself with the tape is not an exact science either, but gives me an idea where I am at, week to week.

Today is one day early to post the weeks results because today I have made it my free day since my husband and I get to go on a date! We rarely get to do that so I am very excited about dinner AND a movie! Doing two things NEVER happens! A sweet cousin of mine volunteered to take on my little munchkins for me tonight. So excited!

Made Me Feel Good

Yesterday both my sister and a friend commented that my face and arms both look thinner! That is nice since I am only 2 1/2 weeks into this. Makes me want to keep going! Not to mention when I take a shower and see myself naked in the mirror. Gag.

My run was great....

this morning. Hit a 10 on a sprint. I feel really invigorated after a cardio session on the treadmill. I feel like I really accomplished something. That in itself makes a good start for the day.